Hello Everybody, I'd be thankful if you'd please allow me to suggest the following to you...

I have been wondering about something I'm doing, wondering with hope that it may really be succeeding.

I've been through and witnessed some tough situations in our country that are hard to imagine. Situations that include repeated physical attacks against me, across a number of years. I figure it's hard to imagine because I know I wouldn't be able to imagine it if I hadn't gone through it.

There are many things now I am trying to do all at once with my life in this country and world. I've gone very far to make a better chance for all those things I am trying to do and in spite of many things still going wrong with so many of the parts of the things I'm trying to do all at once in my life and with Still Love Freely, one part of those things I am trying to do seems to be going right.

I have been going out the streets on foot. These outings have gone on many times each month, averaged over fifty miles per month, and lasted almost three years.

When I started things related to StLF and created this website, I began suggesting a lot that finding ways to still be free enough to act on our feelings of love in many situations in this world, was a way to proceed with our lives that would give us greater prosperity and joy.... ultimately making a future that would be better than we expected. I suggested it a lot, because after all I had been through and witnessed, I'd been thinking it a lot. I thought proceeding with our lives this way made a lot of sense and so it made a lot of sense to me to try to tell other people about it.

I started foot outings to the streets in the places where the worst attacks happened. I was able to go out very openly and publicly displaying information about how some powers of government were being horribly misused by people who had been physically attacking me. It felt risky for me to do these outings, it was something that scared me, but it really made sense to me to be able to still love freely in difficult situations and for a long time I had been trying to do that even if I didn't always call it still loving freely.

When I started going out on foot about three years ago I hadn't planned on explaining about still loving freely by saying what I am recording now in this Growing Possibilities audio you are listening to. I hoped that, at the start, I had explained well enough for some people understand what I meant and I figured I would know that they did because they would do things that looked, to me, like still loving freely but I never really saw a significant amount of people doing anything that I recognized as that.

You see a little over three years ago, and somewhere among all the hard to imagine bad things that happened to me, the attacks, disabilities, secrecy, forced homelessness, looking for help and rarely finding it, and having friends-n-family relationships fade to a shadow of what they once were. Having people in those kinds of close relationships and people who barely knew me trying to do things to my life and around me by guessing what I wanted without knowing if I was really okay with it because they never really talked to me about it... somewhere among all of that I started noticing some things happening to the younger people I would encounter in my life. Among all this danger, strangeness, and secrecy I started to think more about how our country and it's people looked to the younger people I encountered... to the next generation... of family... of my friends and their families... of the people living in the area where they'd found out about these planned attacks happening for years. I started to think about what it looked like to the next generation of all those people as I watched so many in the next generation turn inward and internalize fear and threat.

I recognize that it's normal for our young to be timid in the face of danger. The human race wouldn't last very long if all our kids early and often just charged head on into the face of danger. It's also normal for younger people take cues from the behavior of older people, cues about how they themselves can and maybe should behave. The younger people I encountered both near and far seemed to be taking a lot of the cues from the examples set by the adults around them. Cues to sneak around n hide from the threats around us, hide from the threats often by hiding what they were thinking and feeling about the horrible things around us. Young people unable to talk about what was really happening within themselves and around them in the world.

It was like their normal timid nature and the cues from the older people around them suggesting them to hide their feelings and avoid the threats combined into them losing some basic deep feelings of having real freedom. With them losing freedom they had held on to until the fear entered into them. This combination of a normal timid nature and cues from adults seemed on course to eventually make them permanently lose those feelings of real deep freedom.

I thought more about the younger people around me that knew that I was attacked and injured and knew I reached out for help to all 3 branches of governments at state and federal levels for a solution. Knew I participated in the exchange of thousands of calls, letters, emails, and court documents. Knew I'd done that and hardly ever found someone that would simply do the duties of their official positions. Most often the officials seemed to be avoiding doing anything that would be a real help to me and perhaps maybe just implied, or suggested, in sneaky way that they were helping even though they wouldn't say how and then later on at some point some other officials would escalate the violence and attacks against me.

When a person sees someone they look up to in danger and injured, or when a young person sees that happen to other people in our country, in videos and stories, and sometimes even sees worse things happen to people... and sees that most people who can help.... or are supposed to help... do nearly nothing that actually helps for many years... when a young person sees these horrible things, it seems to have a strong effect on them. Like they think it could easily happen to them too one day and no one could or would stop it. They think that and often do not even talk about challenging those dangers because they don't want to be the next person it happens to. With those kinds of unspoken, unexplored, and maybe most importantly unresolved, feelings inside them, they stay hopeless that those horrible things can ever be stopped. And sadly, from my experience that comes from telling people about what happened to me it actually seems that knowing about those horrible things happening to other people too often also has the same strong effect on adults in our country.

I thought about the younger people around me, people I cared about, family, friends, the next generation. I thought about what things looked like to them. I thought about the cues they were getting. I thought about what I could do to behave differently, what I could do to send different cues, what I could do to show another possibility for how life could be. A possibility that didn't involve so much hiding feelings and avoiding threats. I thought of something I could do and it felt risky. It scared me, but it was made easier though, easier to still get out there and be able to do it, because of the people I loved who I thought it would help.

So I became enabled to do this foot outing thing at first for days, then weeks, then months, and then for more than a year in the places where the worst attacks happened, able to do it without another bad physical attack happening.

Still I did not see much success in the form of people seeming to understand the possibility of how us citizens in our country can hold our own freedom, hold onto the freedom I had seen the younger generation holding until the fear entered into them and they were forced turn inward with that fear because they could never resolve it with the people in the world around them. I maybe saw a little understanding for the possibility of how us citizens in our country can hold our own freedom, a freedom that includes us being able to still do the things we love. Which also includes the freedom of doing kind, compassionate, forthright, things when feel it is the right thing to do, even in a difficult situation. I saw a little bit of understanding for what I'd hoped to be able to explain about how we can still love freely even in difficult situations, but I saw very little of it and after a few years I decided to then visit new much farther places for continuing my outings. During most of this last year I've taken a big road trip. On this road trip I have added about 30 states to the list of places where I have been able to go out very publicly displaying information about how powers have been misused against me and I still remain able to go on not having been stopped. The area I covered where I have been hoping to explain and demonstrate the possibilities for holding our freedom has grown to include most states in our country, a super majority of the states in fact.

Now, there is no simple line between success and not success in this ongoing foot outing thing I'm doing, but the fact that these outings have been able to last this long and that I have been able to grow so large an area where I have been able to do them, while regaining so many abilities and so much of the strength I lost over the years of attacks.... well it seems really positive and hopeful. It seems to have been affecting people around me a little more now too. Family, Friends, people in the areas where it happened, and other people who have heard about it now... there is something starting to coming out of them... like smiles, I'm seeing more of those, and people are more active, more positive and energetic again, not so introverted with everything staying stuck inside them as internalized fear and hopelessness. There's not quite a lot of direct open conversation yet. A lot of things still remain socially unexplored and unspoken, so it is hard to say exactly what it is going on, and there's probably is still a lot of unresolved emotions out there too.

I wonder a lot about why there is not a lot of open and direct conversation. The first listed right of a citizen in our country is about the freedom of expression which includes conversation it seems. Expression is a very important right and a hugely useful for us to use in making and being the kind of country where we really have freedom. Expressing ourselves so we can all know in very obvious ways what freedom really means to all of us.

Again though, with all the things that have gone wrong, maybe this that I'm doing with the bit of success that I'm seeing is at least serving a small example to the next generation an example of the freedom that is possible. The possibility that a person, a citizen of our country, stands a chance to maintain real freedom against powerful threats.

Please let me suggest that you don't have to give in to oppressive or tyrannical threats in our country. Threats like the ones I have seen and faced, or any others threats, whatever the threats may be.

Let me suggest that it is possible to overcome the fear and hopelessness. That It is possible to hold our freedom if we are willing to do what it takes, but that holding our freedom doesn't happen when we back our way through life avoiding adding risk to ourselves. Let me suggest that avoiding threats because we feel that's what's going to make us free from the threats, doesn't work.

Deciding to just avoid things that feel threatening to you as a way to try and keep your freedom means that you actually just keep losing freedom while the things you avoiding remain ACTUALLY free to be and remain out there and leaves us living in a place where those threats keep existing and are allowed to just grow and grow if they want to.

Let me suggest that for all the imperfections that may exist in our land, our nation. There is also a design from when the country was made a design that has a very wide and deep rooted kind of balanced strength

A design that us citizens can use to help hold our freedom if we are willing to do what it takes.

Let me that suggest that when trying to do the right thing, a citizen stands a chance against the greatest powers in this country even when something bad is happening because the citizens are the greatest of the great powers in this country.

While all the other great powers in the country are some form of having power over others, which is divisive and by it's nature means that people will be divided and not united and means those powers will always have competition against them, the power of citizens is power made strong with it's nature of being a power with others.

This power we have together is for the things we freely choose to participate in doing together, the things we think are right to do together.

A citizens stands a chance because a big part of the design was made to give power to people who are trying to do the right thing. The design was not for just a few people to get to tell everyone else what is right. We all get a say in deciding what the right thing is but no one gets much of a say in what is right if we hardly say what we think is right if we don't use the right, the freedom of expression to say what we want, if we leave so many of the really important things unspoken, unexplored... UNEXPRESSED.

So many things that have happened in our country, and throughout the world of all humankind show a history where rightful freedoms go to or stay with people who are willing to do the right things it takes to hold to their freedom even if sometimes it means there is a greater risk to themselves.

Freedom does not go to, or stay with, people who mostly back away from threat each time it presents itself.

Let me suggest that if you are willing to try and go out there and talk about difficult things openly when it can make a real difference, wherever these things are, we stand a chance to maintain real deep freedom.

Please, don't get me wrong, the troubles and threats in my situation are by far NOT the worst anyone has faced in our country, but from what I have seen in people, situations like mine do seem to start people internalizing their feelings of fear and threat. Often not talking about what they feel, not realizing it is effecting so many people who are losing their freedom while hoping to just back away and avoid the threats out there passively allowing the threats to just keep existing.

I have seen that backing away so often in people, but it is possible to live another way, it is possible to hold deep freedom... to maintain real freedom and not give in.

It is possible, to HOLD YOUR FREEDOM, to not turn inward. You don't have to go inside yourself with your fear and your FEELINGS about what is going on. You don't have to get stuck in there with your fear. We all start out feeling pretty free sometimes in our youth. We can hold onto that. We can carry that through our lives and bring it with us wherever we go. All of us citizens together, we can do that.

I've often held and maintained real freedom over the last than fifteen years. That's approximately how long I have been up against some powerful forces and threats.

Whatever happens now... I'm glad to have had these 15 years where I stayed open to what life had to offer even when it was really hard to deal with. 15 years like this, with tastes of real freedom, sit a lot better with my spirit than even surviving forever would if I was surviving while backing my way through life.

And for now it seems that at least for a moment I can enjoy what feels like some success in my life. I had not experienced success like this in a long time, the success of energy and smiles and positivity I've seen coming out of people as I completed the last part of the road trip this last year. It was hard to expect that it could happen and now hard to believe that what I'm doing may be succeeding.

I mentioned at the beginning of this talk, I hadn't planned on explaining about still loving freely by saying what I am recording now in this Growing Possibilities audio you are listening to. I hadn't planned on some of the things I'm doing being like a big example of still loving freely in a difficult situation. I figured probably I'd be focusing more on a broader explanation of what Still Loving Freely can do for us. What it can do for us in the way we practice group learning, group rules, and group economics. A way that would lead to all sorts of prosperity where we would have better education, better health, better feelings of hospitable communities, and a general better future than we expect to have.

But I am having trouble understanding if the foundational explanations I've been trying to lay down about still loving freely are understood by a substantial number of people... and it's hard to find a big example of still loving freely that I know more about than what I've been doing... and one that is related to what I am trying to accomplish for our lives... because this is an example that I was involved in and this is an example where I have had a chance to see every little effect it has across the country on a lot of people in a lot of places... and the unresolved trouble around me always seem to get in the way of doing bigger broader things

So since a lot around me remains unresolved and keeps getting in the way, I have adapted over the time of three years. I tried more to grow and spread the sense of possibility for freedom in the unresolved troubles around me. And even though there is no simple line between success and not success, in this ongoing foot outing thing I'm doing, at some point it makes sense to feel happy that still loving freely is kind of working. Especially in this difficult situation in a life. When I talk about loving freely it isn't something that is going to make you like all disappointed or always feeling bad. It's not something that's just going to always be like difficult or a real struggle. If it's something you want to do, something you love to do, something you want to be free to do... even if it may be tough and scary at first... if you get it right, if it kind of works, if you are doing what you love to do, it should feel good at some point, right? Like really honestly good, like purely happily joyfully good. And that sometimes is what I'm starting to feel now about this part of the things I'm doing. Feeling honestly purely joyfully good.

I've been trying so much for years to do things for the idea of still love freely. I often hope that maybe people can see me and can think something like "hey that would really be a joy, to have some freedom like that right there". Like people would actually love to know that freedom in this country is so resilient that they could still feel free even if they had trouble similar to the trouble I've had in their lives.

I hope I am fortunate enough that I may be giving some people a unique taste freedom, so that maybe they can be reminded of what their freedom felt if they'd ever felt it when they were younger, and maybe then they can take that and carry that feeling with them for a while.

I'm guessing that to a lot of people it seems dumb or naive that ideas like kindness and love can overcome things like brutality, and lies, and violence, and attacks. I'm guessing that from the feelings I get when talking to some people about those ideas overcoming those much more brutal things when talking to some people I do get the feeling that they think those ideas are dumb or naive, but the things I've been doing seem to be working and seem to be helping toward the emotional part of achieving better group prosperity.

I've loved being able to go out and openly present myself and my life to the world in spite of all the danger. I've loved being able to add a voice to this world that speaks of other possibilities beyond so often being unable to talk about what's really happening within ourselves and the world around us. I've loved being able to find a way to still be free enough to stand up for the next generation of my extended family, for the next generation of friends, for the next generation of anyone in this country, and for all people this seems to have helped, all the people I've seen who looked a little happier because of what I've been doing...

I've loved all of that.

It was risky. I was scared. By focusing on the feelings of love I had for the people it could help and on what I love to be able to do for them, I got strength to be free enough to still do it anyway.

Even though I'd hoped many other things would have gone better by now, at least this seems to be helping and it may be some kind of example that can help to show how being able to still love freely can actually work, and I will continue to try to show that in any way that I can.

Thank you.

For a long time I didn't think it was realistically possible for me to get to all 50 states. I didn't think it was possible because I didn't have enough money to do it. I've been living off of an average of about $850 a month for all the years I've been putting up this website and doing the thing about "Growing Possibility" as I've gone on more outings to more and more states. Most of the $850 comes from monthly disability payments from the United States Social Security Administration. Payments I found out I qualified for after I was attacked and injured. On this website, I talk more about the attacks. One of the places I talk more about the attacks is the Explanations page, if you're interested.

(( I'm interrupting myself here to let you know that since originally recording this audio I have moved the explanations to the ideas section where you can find stuff about the attacks in the timeline topic of the ideas section. Thanks, now back to the original recording. ))

While I've had this website going I've been hoping that people would see the site, and understanding that people usually have many things to do in their life, I figured that if people only had a minute or two to check this site out it wouldn't hurt for me to have an explanation of a goal that I had that was simple enough to understand quickly. That goal was to make it to the 48 connected states. Finishing all those states would give me a completed map. A map that is basically what people quickly think of when we think of the shape of America's map. Along the way toward my goal I also talked about why I had that goal and I put up a talk, with the map, here on this website.

When I reached my goal I noticed more that although the map looked complete at first glance, it didn't really feel complete. I often have more than just one reason for things I do and getting to all the states is one of those things with more than one reason, but the reason of really completing my journey throughout our country and being able to include all the states with the people those states was and is enough reason for me to at least try to figure out how to grow the number of states I've been to on my journey to include all the states. I thought about making the trip to Alaska basically the way I did the first 48 states. I would drive some distance I could afford each month and then go further when I got more money and was able to continue. I was planning that when I thought that I should at least look at how much flying cost in case it was anywhere close to how much driving would cost and it turned out it actually was a lot less to fly. I would just have to save up and spend all the money at once instead of going a bit at time. That got me thinking about Hawaii too because then I could really complete the journey throughout our country and driving to Hawaii isn't an option at all. Spending all at once is the only option for going to Hawaii. That trip turned out to be a trip that could cost about the same amount as going to Alaska.

It might be hard to imagine how to afford these trips living on about $850 a month, so please let me explain what I've done that has made it realistically possible for me. I don't have a physical place in this world that I think of as home but I do have a vehicle I use for helping ease my survival. If you haven't seen it, I call it my "Survival Machine", and there's a picture of it on this page with a short description.

(( I'm interupting myself, again, this time because now the way to get to the "Survival Machine" from here and mostly anywhere is to simply go to the "Menu" and then the "Survival Machine" option. ))

Being a vehicle, I can obviously move it from place to place and sometimes when I do that I'm hoping to figure out enough about the places I go to find somewhere I can call home. For now though, I have built up the vehicle enough for it to serve most of the same survival purposes as a home.

In my life people have sometimes taken away all my things and money... so I've done things to try and make sure I could better protect my things and survive with very little money. That's part of what I've done with my "Survival Machine". With that machine I have gotten the cost of surviving down pretty low. I installed and maintain solar panels on it to give me electricity and I've made a fully custom interior to make living in such a small space more bearable. I also do almost all the mechanical work on the vehicle from basic maintenance all the way up to disassebling major parts of the engine to do repairs. Doing almost everything myself helps keep the cost of surviving very low. I've invested in quite a few tools to make my carpentry, electrical, interior, and mechanical work possible to do while on the road. To help keep my "Survival Machine" from being taken away, like my things have been taken away in the past, I installed cameras all around and the attention I have been trying to draw to my situation seems to have helped too. That's a couple things people who try to steal things don't like, cameras and a lot of attention.

Well anyway, it turns out that if you do the kinds I've done to survive with very little money...

and then for a few months save up by...

basically only spending money on food (usually at Walmart)...

and only spending on whatever monthly things you can't skip like insurance payments etc...

and spend hardly anything on gas by avoiding moving your car anywhere very far if you can...

It turns out then even the little amount of money I've had is enough to take some really carefully planned bare bones trips to finish off making it to all of our states.

Here's the kind of planning and bare bones trips I'm talking about...

~ Look about two months in advance and check about 30 days' worth of ticket prices.

~ Take late night red eye or really early flights when possible.

~ Check no bags or carry-ons.

~ Have no choice in which seat you get on the plane.

~ Take some food with you to get you past the hungry times where food is super expensive (like on planes and at the airport).

~ Schedule departing or returning flights for weekdays (not Friday, Saturday, or Sunday).

~ Use stopover flights when possible.

~ Fly in the off season if you're headed somewhere popular like Hawaii.

~ Go for only one day or just a few.

~ Sleep in a rental car if you can or at the airport for a night if you can or share a room with 7 other people at a hostel.

Trips like that are something you can take if you only get $850 a month when you've already done a lot to lower your cost of surviving... and I am really glad that it turns out this way. I've already included all the other states and people in trying to grow what could be possible to many people in our country. It seems only fair and feels good to include the last two states to try and reach all of us in our country.

So I'm going for it, I'm going for 50.

Thanks again for listening...

I first started this site with a video. In that video called [ONE PERSON IN OUR WORLD],

I mention how I was looking to create something that could be easily given to a lot of people. Something that would help people in some difficult and horrible situations sense a way to get through those situations to more prosperous and jouyful times in life.

Even though I've been trying to help with a lot of horrors that happen in our world, I've also had some personal goals too for the horrible things that happened in my life. I was hoping to find something to really help a lot of things in my life, for me, and the people I care about, and in the world for anyone who wished for a similar kind of better world to live in. There was a lot of overlap between all these things I was hoping for and trying to do.

I thought what I would create would mostly be something digital like videos, or interactive animations. I ended up finding something else that could be given, in a way, to many people. And it does seem to help some people dealing with difficult and horrible things look less trapped in their own bodies.

I found what I could create by starting my street outings when I launched this site.

With some assitance of a bike I could lean on, I walked around with signs that talked about various things I had on my website and I had the web address so people could visit it if they wanted. I talked to people sometimes to try to learn what I could create that would do the most good.

I ended up having conversations with people a lot, that seemed to afraid to be honest with me.

Not being able to hear a lot of honest thoughts and feelings about what I was doing made it difficult to figure out how to help the people.

It's like somehow people have these jails inside of them,

some internal stuff that makes them too afraid to even let out words about what really scares them.

People often seemed like they were some kind of prisoners within their own bodies.

I did kind of often get people trying to give me encouragment though.

Encouragement to keep going with my site and outings.

So I guess they thought what I was doing was good somehow.

This went on a while and I started to see progress on one of the other goals I had reasoned for my site and my outings.

This goal was not the goal of helping people by creating something but the goal involving a medical resoultion for my injuries. I was getting stronger on my outings. I was able to stop using the bike and eventually even hike or jog. Years later I even got to run at full speed for the first time in years without feeling anything in my body holding me back. It was incredbile.

anyway...

Since I'd started to hike and jog most of the time and I wasn't getting a whole lot of honesty, I ended up not talking to people as much, but did notice that even though people weren't really talking to me there were more and more people who just seemed to want to place themselves around me during my outings. Not like people who had before placed themselves around me without talking to me about it...

...the people who had been before keeping tabs on me and attacked me at different times over many years

but people who seemed happy with what I was doing.

I saw some of strange smiles

not just you know normal friendly smiles

but smiles that looked like people had already been hearing something about me

that made them understand what I was doing

and that's what they were smiling about.

Like, smiling about the thing they already heard.

But some people even seemed to show up more than once during some of my outings.

I eventually talked to some people after going to several other states and going many miles on my outings.

I asked them if they felt better knowing that someone could be attacked like I was

and still be able to do the things I'v done with my site and outings

It was just a few people I asked, but they all said yes.

Not like hip hip hooray yes

but yeah kinda does make feel better about the possibilites there are in this country we live in kinda yes

Like some of the things that seemed so scary here didn't seem so scary anymore.

Well, I was having trouble getting other kinds of honest feedback that would help guide me to what I could create that could be given to a lot of people to help them...

so I doubled down on the outings and created a section of this site called Growing Possibilty.

It's the section you're in right now.

It's got that map and these talks and it's not a bunch of videos or a game, but it can be given to a lot of people to see and people were saying it helped.

I set a goal to visit all the states and do at least one outing there and I accomplished it. Then I turned my mind toward what could be next.

and well...

more

that's what I want to accomplish next

I want to accomplish more.

what's next is me aimed at accomplishing more.

I roll on with most of what I said in the video I launched with this site

and I'm not stopping the outings

they are already helping

and I want to do some things that help now

not just things that help down the line

so my MIND and I decided to keep doing the outings

I want to accomplsh more by adding to that progress I make on the outings and I don't want to put a lot of time into things that don't help...

So it's hard to finish much really engaging immersive content for the site, but content is something that I can create that can easily be given to a lot of people. If new more engaging content content does help then it can help a lot of people because it can be given to many people to see it. So I've made something that will maybe make it easier to find some things I should put A LOT of time into creating.

It is a new major section on this website. It is the ideas section. I wrote a bit of a program for myself to make putting things up on this site easier. The things I put up will even sort of self-organize into groups of related idea topics, I just have to tag um and the program presents ideas grouped together automatically.

That way I can make small little bits of things and just upload them to this site. Then people can check out an idea and it will autmatically put more links with related ideas. People can see the names of the related Ideas and then pick any one they like. I can see how many total visits there are on each page with Ideas, and then work on more stuff like that. That way I can work on the stuff that already kinda works for people and not waste alot of time on the stuff that doesn't work.

I also may have found another way to add to that progress I've made on the outings

I seem to see that people open up more to positive possibility when I revisit places where I do outings.

People seem to be less like prisoners within themselves.

People tend to become more engaged, more involved, more active and let more out of their own mind to let their feelings move them and all that kinda stuff..

instead of well..

kinda looking a litte more frozen sometimes real timid and all that kinda stuff...

So I'm gonna try to improve with what I've learned and I will be aiming toward revisiting outings in more places.

Looking for personal joy n freedom wherever it may grow in the people who make their way toward me as I do my outings even if they don't explain why they do soo stay stuck sneaking around.

I won't neccessarily be trying to do all the same places but it could be anywhere in the country again as I go around.

Last time around it was basicaly a 5k fast jog everywhere I went

I often felt forced to do it, or over-do it last time.

It seemed better to just push and push myself

50 miles a month going for 50 states

it's what I was doing

because everything I could do to get attention on what was happening

seemed to be better helping protect myself and some of the people I care about.

Now I feel a chance to shift a bit of priorities,

I've started orienting my runs around improving a shorter one mile effort

with short run bursts and walking mixed.

30 miles a month could be a better amount of miles so I don't over do it on some days just to get to 50.

Especially when driving around to find repeat spots to do outings can have it's own pain problems for me. I've made a better way to cool my self and rest after my outings or trips to the gym

I cut a hole in the roof of my vehicle, made a custom a AC box and bolted it and sealed it into that hole

and got some extra solar panels too for when they are needed for enough power.

I may also be maybe talking to people more again during times when I am taking it a bit easier during outings.

Maybe with what I've learned for how many people I've seen sneaking around me on purpose

I can help cultivate their personal joy and freedom wherever it may grow within them,

instead of them having that prisoners in their own body vibe so often on outings.

So that's what's next

accomplishing more

more in addition to my outings with a new Ideas section on this site

more strength and healing

and more during outings

I hope maybe we will meet out there some day and that meeting can be turned in to some more joy too

Hey, if you have seen me or will see me and you have some joy I already missed the chance to cultivate or I end up missing the chance

please tell me

Thanks

Bye for now....

Out on the open road recently, I've sometimes been surprised by my own chosen behavior. Sometimes, I've been vocally very critical of people's behavior around me. I've further been surprised to have thoughts about how (in my situation) being vocally critical may sometimes actually be helping to cultivate joy. Still, it is hard to say for sure whether it helps or not, especially when people are hardly openly vocal with me.

I have a section of this Still Love Freely website called IDEAS. It is where I am basically adding any new talks or images or videos for topics I find myself wanting to say something about or make something about.

For any further updates about topics I brought up here in these Growing Possibilities talks, you can look around the IDEAS section. You may want to start with the following link...